|Cross posted for answers... Constructive help only please
||[Dec. 3rd, 2006|01:09 am]
The Powers Within
Alright, so ever since I began practicing whyte magick, psionics, meditation, and "sensory training", as I'm going to call it, my instincts have been strengthened and my mind has been working double time to fix things, and not only that, but I am now feeling what people would call "spirits" or "energy" wherever I go and my dreams have suddenly become more and more intense, realistic, and horrifyingly questionable.|
I have been following several murder and missing person cases and ever since I have really felt like I was connecting with the victims, my animals and fiance have noticed a change in the air, like something is lurking.
We have also found out that the person who lived here was a sex offender, so it may have something to do with that, but my dreams are going more toward these cases...and I'm seeing symbols that may or may not have had anything to do with the crimes.
Well, the problem is that I don't know what to think now.. I don't know what to do about any of it or where to take it that can even be helpful. I am trying to avoid any negative attention, but if there is something trying to get me to help, I WANT TO HELP! My dog is barking constantly in the room I keep going in that feels like something powerful is there.. it doesn't seem bad, but then again incredibly eerie and it frightens all of us a little bit...
I'm lighting white sage it seems constantly to clear the air of negative energy and using salts, candles, and incense to try to calm whatever it is down.
Nick's family once had to have an exorcist come into their old house to deal with a very powerful BAD spirit and he says this is nothing like that, but there is something here now. There are a BUNCH of orbs in the pictures I took a few nights ago, and they are all very positive looking colors.. I just am really unsure of what to do now. What steps do I take and how the FUCK can I ignore this now???
I don't want to exactly ignore it because it is really intriguing in a way, but I am not going to lie.. this is scaring the fucking shit out of me.
I need to figure out the deal with spirit guides, I think..
I have a tarot meeting tomorrow at 5 p.m... I guess they would be good people to present this to, instead of most of my lj acquaintances who have nothing or close to nothing to do with this. I am very new to all of this, honestly. I have sensed things, but it's never been so ingrained in my mind that what I am feeling is real. Please, any help on how to look at this and deal with it would be very helpful. My books only go so far into things... (My money is only going toward my apartment and my next move at the moment. Fiance and I need to control spending, but it looks like it's going to be REALLY important to pick something else up. Any good suggestions would be MUCH MUCH MUCH appreciated!!!!!)
Love and Light,